Wedding Shower!

Hello again! I know it has been a long time since I posted anything and I apologize for that. Anyway, today has been a day of challenge. John and I attended a wedding shower for a dear family friend. Alex has been with us for a long time. Alex and Billy have been friends since they played pee wee football together. Our families got to know each other and just blended together to make one BIG happy family. We have shared each other's joys, tears, challenges, tragedies but most of all we share our love for each other. Billy knew no matter what he was going through or where he was Alex would be there for him. We use to call them Cowboy and Tonto!

I kept finding myself thinking about Billy today and knowing in my heart that he is in heaven smiling down on Alex (Cowboy)! Billy was so proud to have Alex as a friend, and they shared so much together. They walked creeks together looking for fish, they hunted together, they got into trouble together, but most of all they were there for each other when it counted the most.

So as I work at not crying today because of Billy's absence during his friend's special time in life, I look back at all they did together and I know that Billy is proud and happy for Alex as he ever would have been.

I also know that Alex was committed to Billy as a true friend, and therefore he will make a wonderful husband to Madison, because he was her friend first and Alex takes the commitment of friendship very seriously. To Alex and Madison I wish them happiness and much joy in their life together as husband and wife. But, most of all I want them to remember what brought them together was friendship and that will also keep them together through it all. Much love from our family to them!

Playing Hard!!!!!!

Check out that smile! We were playing a major game of basketball with his new basketball goal that Papa bought him at Wal-mart last night! He was having a blast and making all the shots. We had a great time laughing.

He is looking more and more like Billy everyday. I have to stop sometimes and just watch him play and it makes my heart skip a beat because he looks so much like his daddy!

Enjoy every new experience with your kids and grandkids they are so precious. God has blessed us with so much love from those little hearts!

The Perfect Grilled Cheese Sandwich

According to my husband I made the ultimate grilled cheese sandwiches last night for supper. Talk about the simple things in life! John was so happy and went on and on about how perfect the color and texture of my sandwiches were. I don't know if that was due to the fact that he had been home sick and was just so excited to see me and have something to eat. I don't care what it was, it was really nice to see him so excited over something I fixed for him to eat. It feels good to do something for your spouse and have such a great reaction to it. If he could have had them preserved so that they would have lasted forever I think we would have been having it done! According to John I out did Martha Stewart and Paula Dean last night and that is saying a lot for my cooking. Well I thought I would take just a minute and brag about my grilled cheese sandwiches!!!!! Remember the way to a man's heart is through his stomach!

I KNITTED TODAY !!!!!!

Today I spent the day with my beloved friend Mindy. We had a very relaxing and as always adventurous day! We stopped at this beautiful little shop in Celina Texas called Delightful Hands. It was there that I met a woman who was a blessing from God to me today. Not only did she teach me how to KNIT, but we had a wonderful talk and I was truly blessed by her presence. Yes, you saw that correctly I learned how to knit in less that 10 minutes! Sherry the owner of Delightful Hands was an amazing teacher, but more than anything she is a true example that there are still very spiritual people in the world and she is willing to pray for you for any reason at any time. I have never felt so at home and comfortable in a shop ever! Mindy and I walked in and it was instant comfort. Sherry's shop has a little bit of everything you need to clear your mind and just relax. As you walk into the shop there is a couple of big cozy couches and the setting area is totally like being at home. Sherry offers her customers beautiful yarns, beautiful papers to use in preserving your memories and pictures, and just an all around cozy feeling of welcome. She has an absolutely precious daughter who was working with her today. You can tell that she has raised a fine christian young lady. So if you are ever in Celina Texas please take the time and stop by and see Sherry and all the comfort of the Delightful Hands shop. As for my day with one of the most precious gifts in my life, my friend Mindy. Thank you for always showing me something new and for reminding me that no matter what God is still in the small things of life if I will just look for him. Your friendship is a true blessing and I leave from spending the day with you totally refreshed and replenished. Thank you and I love you!

DRAKE NIGHT!!!!!!!

This is the highlight of our week! We get to go and see our grandson Drake. We have so much fun with him. Tonight we went and ate at McDonald's and got a toy! (I think Papa liked it the best!) then we did our Wednesday tradition and went to Wal-Mart to get a toy. Drake knows beyond a shadow of a doubt that Papa is going to buy him something at Wal-Mart be it a car, motorcycle or any toy that Drake convinces him that he wants. Drake lights up our week with his wonderful laugh and his radiant smile. I love when he looks at me with those beautiful eyes and tells me about his day and what him and his mommy did that day. Then my heart sinks when he doesn't want us to leave to go home, he wants to play a little bit more. I wish I could just spend all my days playing with him. Thank you Lord for the gift of a grandchild, he is absolutely precious! I know his daddy is smiling down from heaven and telling all the angels look at my boy isn't he smart. Billy was so proud of Drake and I know his heart is busting with happiness and love for Drake from heaven. Well I think it is time for Mamaw to go to bed so she can start another day! Many blessings and I hope someday everyone gets to experience the joys and love of a grandchild!

Closure

Today we completed just one more step in the closure of our son's death. We buried his ashes in Marietta in our family plot. We have been putting this act off for some time now. I think it will be good for all of us and although it was hard and very confusing it feels good to have a place that we all can go and find peace in this tragedy. I miss Billy every single day and some days I feel as if the world is just spinning around me and I have no control of it. But today I felt peace. I felt like Billy needed this just as much as we did. He now has a place to be and family and friends can now come and visit with him and feel okay about doing it. His ashes were placed right by a very beautiful tree. I know the tree is bare at this time of the year but I just know in the summer it will be full of beautiful green leaves and it seemed so fitting since Billy enjoyed every inch of nature. So to my son I hope this means as much to you as it did to us today. We miss you so much and just want to do something to make peace with your loss. I love you son and Thank you for the most amazing dance.

Wanting something so bad you can taste it!

Today a friend found out she was not pregnant and my heart broke for her. She would be such a good mother and I know her heart is hurting so bad. Knowing all the emotion she is going through made me think back to when I was pregnant with Billy. He was such a beautiful little boy and I cherish those memories. So take some time and really look at your children and then hug and kiss them and tell them that you love them! To my friend lean on the Lord and he will give you the strength to get through this.



Look what a cute little man Billy was!!!!!!!